DARKNESS
The darkness engulfs me
The darkness overpowers me
The darkness controls my every move
The darkness is trying to break me
The darkness wont let me breath
The darkness is in my lungs
The darkness is in my heart
The darkness is in my mind
When I open my eyes all I see is darkness
I have lived with darkness I have got to know its weaknesses
I have lived with darkness and got to know its strong points
I know darkness better then anybody that has lived with it
Because I lived with it for 15 long years
The longest years of my life
Somebody very close to me broke the darkness
And brung me in to the light
The light feels good and warm and secure
It feels nice
I look down and my lungs aren't dark any more
I look and my heart isn't dark anymore
My mind isn't dark anymore
My soul isn't dark anymore
I can finally see the light
When I look out upon the sea I see sands of tan and smiling faces happy
playful no worries except 4 the wonder of a sun burn I see water green dark
green I see a ship away off in the distance I look back on the beach and see
young kids and old ones to I see the old married couple still enjoying each
other until they die.
I sniff and I smell sun block and sun tanning oil the smell of body's
tanning and I smell salt water it's a great smell I hear a boat pull up I
hear people getting out of the boat I hear hellos hey what's ups.
I close my eyes and I am blind now all I can see is dark black I hear the
water rolling in it sounds like music to my ears these our sounds I love to
hear I open my eyes and look around I look at my self and notice im being
buried by some kids they smile and laugh as they burry me in sand.
As I get out of the sand that the kids buried me in I look down to a little
girl pulling my shirt saying mister mister and I say yes? She says do u see
what I see when I look out upon the sea? And I say yes I do. And I say do u
smell what I do when I close my eyes? And she says yes I do mister. Then I
say do u hear what I hear when I close my eyes? And she says yes I do and I
say well little girl it has been nice chatting with u and she runs off with
the pale and shovel and she sits down and starts to dig and as I walk to my
car I see and smell and hear the same things that I love then I hear the one
I love saying Logan Logan come on babe and I look and I smile to the one I
love and its u jenny
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As I look on at the world all I see is death destruction and misery but
where our the happier times when children could run and play and be happy I
don't know what happened to those days I us to love so much I am sad now
because I am now a teen and all my happy days our over playing in my sand
box when I was little a little boy sit in his sand box and played in it with
out a care in the world but.
Where did those days go? I don't know I guess they just left well its no big
deal I mean I have stuff to look forward to my first kiss? My first love? My
first car? Maybe even my first car crash? Maybe even my first friends death?
Maybe I will find the one I want to be with for eternity? U never know? It
could be a bad thing it could be a good thing u never know? My first
heartbreak? U never know?
And why did those days have to leave? I wonder if it's just a growing up
period that im going thru? U never know? I wish some times that I could just
go back to those days and visit myself and tell myself what happens to me in
the future? But that would not be any fun GEEZZ. I would never have had my
first skint knee if I knew it wz gunna happen? If we knew everything bad
that was gunna happen to us would we even leave our houses? I highly Doubt
it well getting back on subject.
Where did those days go? I still wonder that don't u sometimes? Wonder where
those days went the day I met my girl friend that I love more then anything
in this world. Her name is Jennifer Lee Ann Langley. I wz 9 and she wz 7 she
wz riding her bike up the street I had just moved in on I moved in to her
old house she wz beautiful and still is beautiful a beauty which will
surpass no other and as she rode by me she said hi in this kind of squeaky
voice I smiled and she smiled right back and I wz having a bad day I mean
moving to a new house new street new neighbors but she just made my day so
much better I love u jenny and u should know I always will
TIME
Time is ticking away every moment that we sit around its ticking tick, tick, tick, see we are loosing precious moments right now u the reader is loosing moments of your life slowly tick tick tick going slow our life is going the moments that we could be doing better then sitting at a computer screen reading this little poem that I thought of one day
Being lazy tick tick tick just think of all the better things u could be doing? U could be out with your friends tick tick tick it weird ain't it just sitting there looking at a screen just like we have nuttin better to do
BEAUTY
I have seen beauty
I have seen what people call beauty
But what is real beauty?
Is it seeing the best sunset in the world?
Seeing all the pretty colors?
The red and blue and purple?
Or is it who you are with
When u see this work of art?
If u are with a woman?
Or with your family?
Which ever it is u should love who ever it is your girlfriend or your mother or father
Or sister or brother or even your family dog u should love everybody and we all need love with all of the bad things in the world right now
ANGER 1-09-02
Then anger fills my veins
I just can't take the pain
If I could just puncture a vein to relieve the pain
Then I would just bleed like speed and the anger would pump out of my vein
Then I would not feel any pain pissed off as I am.
As I sit here and sip from my can and think bout how mad I am.
1-10-02
The anger just builds up inside and it feels like I shouldn't be alive.
I feel like dying. I should be dead with hell in my head.
WHAT DO WOMEN REALLY WANT?
Do they want the perfect guy? What is the perfect guy? The guy that will never cheat on you? The guy that will do anything for you? That will buy and do any thing for you? Is that really the perfect guy? I don't think so I mean im not perfect although some girls have told me I am for them the perfect guy I wonder what he would act like I think he would be sumthing like me I don't mean looks wise or nuttin I mean like acting wise like im nice to everybody I meet im kinda smart (I guess) I will try anything once at least but the perfect guy would rule out guys like me I mean no gurl would pick me over the perfect guy please he would be up on a pedestal compared to me im low on the gurl chain the perfect guy would be perfect and every gurl deserves one it might take a while to fid yours but u never know u could be talking on the computer to him right now ;-) you never know.
ALL BY "shifty shellshock"
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I WASN'T SURE
I wasn't sure this day would ever come
I wasn't sure love would last through all we put it through
I wasn't sure that our love would last
I wasn't sure that we would last
I guess what I am trying to say is
I love you alex
ALEX
I love u more then words will ever express
I love u more then a duck loves to swim
I love u more then a goose likes to fly
I love u more then a dog loves to dig
I love u I honestly love u
I love u more then anything in this whole wide world
I love u more then being weird
I love u so much I would die for u
I love u so much that I hope u never leave me
I love u and I know u do to
I love u and I always will
I love u Alex I honestly love u if anybody asks me logan do u love alex I would say yes with all my heart and soul.
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