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Caged Dreams
The air is frozen with in my empty room,
and i place myself in the arms no longer there
this must be the first night my fireplace is lit without a flame to care
The desolance echoes behind my saddened ears
and the loniness has started once again
and i sit here awaiting winters voices
knowing the taste i feel with in
Should i cradle in arms i know are leaving
I am already missing you
Should I bow and return back
to the sleeping always beckoning
thank you
for showing me dreams can come true
but why are you showing me the nightmares too
The smoke circles around my open hand
Palms facing towards the heavens
Sands of time are slowly passing by and i weep without care to be given
The mocking bird's call signals the times upon me to smile and walk you to The door then to hide my tears
so i can burden you no more
I'll just stand by to watch you shine
and i'll close my eyes so i can cry
I'll sit down so you can fly
and i'll close my heart so i can die
you'll leave such large exit wounds
and you cripple me but i'll still move
Should i cradle in arms i know are leaving
i am already missing you
should i bow and return back
to the sleeping always beckoning
thank you
for showing dreams can come true
but why must you show me that nightmares can too.
WHEN IN DOUBT
When you start to feel lonely-and a little blue
Just think of those words- I've whispered to you.
Lips pressed gently-against your ear
"I love you"escapes- for you to hear.
When you feel sadness-and thoughts start to change
Remember our dreams- that we plan to arrange.
When your laying in bed- and just cant sleep
Feel my heart- its your to keep
Remember the smiles-and what they're about
Just focus on "Fact"...whenever in doubt
Anything else-is simply not real
Listen to your heart-it hears how I feel.
And if you get tempted-and start debating
Be reminded again-- for you...I am waiting.
When thoughts run wild-and you start to wonder
The sun always shines--after all of the thunder
.And when it gets hard---and you want to give in
Despite all opponents--Love can win
Hold your head high---feel the rain through the drought
Remember my love whenever in doubt.
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Another Day
Another Day
It's just another day in her life
She'll learn to walk away from what makes her run
It's just another day in the mind that makes her stay
If she had just one reason to stay
She wouldn't go
If she had less one reason to go
She would say no
It's the love of her life that she found
And he doesn't know.
She can't let him go,
she can't let him know.
It's just another tear that she'll cry
Whenever he's not near, she could die.
It's just another cut on her arm that makes her see
If she had just one reason to die
It would be done
If she had found one reason to live
She wouldn't be gone
If there's just one thing I can say to put past my mind
Let it play, just let it play
And you'll be just fine
There have been
Too many times she said "God don't let me go!"
Then she drinks down her pain and her woe.
There have been too many tears, cried a dozen years
There have been too many lives gone wrong.
If they had just one person to help,
They'd be one more step away
If they had just one person to love they'd be just fine
If I had just one night with you
I could walk another day
If I had one more chance to prove it
you can be mine
MY FANTASY
Deepest thoughts, endless dreams
Every night my fantasy.
Visions running through my head
As I toss and tumble in my bed.
Imagination running free
With thoughts of only you and me.
Fighting to cope with destinys plan,
Needing the touch of your gentle hand.
Caressing me softly as we lay,
Hoping you'll never go away.
Deepest thoughts, endless dreams
Will you come true, my fantasy?
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Did you?
Did you ever
Love someone
But you knew
They didn't care?
Did you ever
Feel like cryin'
But knew you'd get nowhere?
Do you look into their heart and wish you were there?
Did you watch them walk away not wanting them to go?
Whispering "i love you" but never let them know?
You cry all night in misery
You almost go insane
There is nothing in this whole world that could cause so much pain.
If you could choose between life or death,
You think you'd rather die.
Love is fun but it hurts so much
The price you pay is far too high.
So I say don't fall in love;
You'll get hurt before it's through
TUCK ME IN
Will you tuck me in?
Will you Hold me through the night?
Even in my dreams I have to fight
The world is turning cold
And my soul feels so old
You asked how was my day
I say I pray
Tomorrow is better
The sun has gone down
And I am still carrying that frown
So will you tuck me in?
Can I lay my head over your heart?
Will you be here to hold me when I fall apart?
Will you tuck me in?
Will you help me through this dark night?
I cannot see my tears hit the floor
I don't want to feel like this anymore
I want to break through this dark
I want to see light
I no longer want to have to fight to sleep
Will you keep
Me in your arms
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How?
How can you care
And not care at all?
How can you trip me
And then break my fall?
How can you hug me
And then push me away?
How can you leave me
And then beg me to stay?
How can you stare
And then not look at me?
How can you ignore me
And expect me to see
That you care,
How can you hide your feelings
And then expect me to show you mine?
how do expect one of us not to get hurt if you leave now
then expect if we wait it'll just hurt more?
its not how it is its give and take situation where
you inturn need to show how you really feel
maybe then itd be easier for me to tell you what i really feel.
right now im gonna leave it as i love you more then anything.
now say good bye
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Lost
Where's the warm bed i used to sleep in?
The pillow i layed my head upon.
The picture of you along my bed side to comfort me when things went wrong
Where's my room?
is it still mine?
I've lost a piece of mind
How and when will i get it back?
This has, and still is, driven me to the brink of insanity.
Trying too hard to get an empty piece of mind filled back in my head.
After hours of pondering, i come to the conclusion it's really you i miss, but why?
I've found someone else, i should be over this,
It wasn't for real
I hardly know you
We've never had the chance
You never gave it to me
Why did we give up in the first place?
You told me once but it never sunk in
I've once again lost a piece of mind
Became your friend or at least tried,
and to even try and get close but every time, i'm pushed away
I'd rather be taunted and told to go on my own,
then to hear your silence among the waves
I'm told to calm down,
to stop crying,
but how can i stop when the one person who make me stop,
made me start.
TIME
I woke up this morning with your name upon my lips
Every nite while i am sleeping
You meet me nightly at 3 am
We always talk about
What life will be like in a few years
I wake up shaken
0n my tongue i taste my tears
Time moves too slowly
When times the one and only
Thing thats keeping us apart
The distance rips my soul out
You dont even know bout the aching feeling in my heart
Everday i wonder blindly
"Where am i going?""Where will i be?"
The only answer i have gotten is in your essence
The truth within and all this talk about
Living here without you
Makes me want to come and live with you
But i cant erase the truth that's in your face
I have to say in this place
Time moves to slowly when times the one and only
Thing thats keeping us apart
The distance rips my soul out
You dont even know about this aching feeling in my heart
i woke up this morning with your name upon my lips
I promised myself that when it was over,
I'd laugh at the memories,
But here I am without a smile in sight.
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Pretend
Under that smile, under that bliss,
who am I really, who do I miss?
I sit there pretending I'm glad you said, "bye",
I sit there smiling... when I really want to cry.
If only you could see me and see what's really there,
if only you understood, if only you could breath my air.
I want to make you know me, I want to really try,
I don't want to hide deep down... I want to die.
You've taken my heart, you've touched my soul,
you took everything, once you left, for me to hold.
My head hurts, I'm crying on the inside,
I don't want you to see- I've lost all of my pride.
Don't you understand me; don't you know who "Amber" is- deep down,
Maybe you would know if you took the time to stick around.
Now I'm lost, I have no where to go,
I'm calling out to you... you simply don't know.
What if I was to let the tears fall from my eyes,
Would you then want to stay, would you regret your good-byes?
I was taught to be strong but it's too hard to bear,
The only time I felt strong was when you were there.
How am I to live my life without you here with me,
when all this time my world involved you being here... endlessly
RAIN OR TEARS
I'm glad it's raining.
No one can see your tear drops when it pours.
I'm glad it's raining.
The thunder is my heartbreak in the stormy sky.
All I have is myself to cope with the pain.
I'm glad it's raining.
The sun breaks through the stormy gray clouds.
Then my tears dry up.
upon my face a smile.
A smile you say,yes a smile.
I remember the good times I had.
Yes the good times I had.
But I still can't forget that fateful day.
Then the clouds roll in again.
Then the tears start to fall.
In the pouring rain.
Then the heartbreak starts again.
The pain in my heart grows worse and worse.
I don't know if I could ever cope.
I must.
I stop the pouring rain and go on with my day remembering
the good times I had
then before i lay my head down to sleep,it rains again,im glad,
now no one can see my tears
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My Broken Promise
My broken Promises
I promised myself that I would call you,
just to see if you were ok,
But here I am, and I canít even dial your number.
I promised myself, that when it was over,
I would not shed a tear,
But here I am, shirt almost soaked with a puddle on the floor.
I promised myself I would let you go gracefully,
But here I am, hating myself for letting you leave how can i be so stupid?
I promised myself that when it was over,
I wouldn't look back,
But here I am, unable to walk forward tell me,where can i go this time?.
I promised myself I would say, "Goodbye,"
But here I am, still saying, "I love you." i know i always will
LETTERS FROM YOU
Today a bottle washed up from sea
It contained a letter from you to me
It talked of how you missed your friend
And wondered what advice I had to send
Today a tear washed up from sea
It contained sorrows from you to me
It told stories of your life
Stories of your struggle, stories of your strife
Today a needle washed up from sea
It contained the poison from you to me
I threw it down; it was your new friend
You described it as your free ticket to the end
Today your heart washed up from sea
You said it was the only part that contained pieces of me
I had to set down and cry mine out to
A little something from me to you
Today tiny pieces of you washed up from sea
I sat wondered what has happened to me
You were my friend I know this now
Do you remember why or how?
Today your body washed ashore
A little something from you to me
I decided I should move away from the sea
My heart still beats and I still have to be
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Subject to
My soul grew dense
My mind lost it's sense
Left alone in tears
My heart lost in fears
Like an innocent dove
I feel subject to love
Alone in pain
My soul is sad
My heart gone bad
My mind adrift
Every night i cry at the edge of my bed
Sadness known emotions past dead
Without you,how do i go on?
Why should i try when i know you're gone?
A crow at heart....endless wandering
my heart and soul always pondering
a question without breath
"Whats better?" "life? or death?"
My soul grew dense
My mind lost its sense
Left alone in tears
My heart lost in fears
Like and innocent dove
I gave you my love
And lost it all because of you
My life will be forever bare
But still i see you just dont care
My soul grew dense
My mind lost its sense
My heart lost in fears
Like an innocent dove
i fell subject to love
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